It’s been a minute since my last depression post. While I was tempted to just post a normal blog post without an explanation about where I have been for the past year. I felt like I needed to at least have an explanation for my readers if I still have any.
There is no denying that 2018 had been one of the most emotionally taxing years of my life. While 2017 started with a bang, my move to South Korea paid blogging opportunities left right and center; 2018 was a total opposite.
In my last blog post, I wrote about my battle with depression and how I was managing it. The truth about depression is that you have up days and down days but sometimes you have more down days than up days. That was 2018 for me. I had more down days, more battles with myself, more questions about what really mattered to me and what didn’t.
I took multiple breaks from social media in hopes that I will find the key to my own happiness. I took one break to deal with my feelings and just soak in them instead of pretending like they don’t exist.
I took another to and went to a temple stay for a couple of days in search of inner peace.
Then I got back to social media and went on a month-long trip to Europe, in the hope that I find some satisfaction and joy in these travels. While I was mostly happy during these times, I more than once caught myself feeling rather empty and alone.
It was during this time that I realized that my dream of becoming a nomad, my dream of living temporarily in many different places, my dream of making the world my home was just not for me. I needed a base, a place I can call home and I needed to find that ASAP.
Towards the end of 2018, I made a decision that 2019 would be my last year in Korea. I needed to move on because the job I once found exciting and fascinating no long made me happy. I need to find my next home and that home in not South Africa.
Getting in 2019 has been full of excitement, I know where I want to go next and I have figured out how I call it my #Vision2020 . The ‘how’ however is not is but that is what makes this whole thing exciting.
So, what have I been up to this year?
- I started a YouTube Channel
- Started going to the gym frequently and taking fitness a little bit more seriously.
- Committed to finding ways to grow my Instagram.
- Working on ways to make my next move exciting and one of those is the said YouTube channel.
- I spend my time alone mostly because I want to save money but also because it is such a peaceful process.
I am still battling depression and anxiety but now I am clear on my triggers so I know how to stay on the surface. The ultimate sacrifice I have made for my #Vision 2020 is that it’s been a year since I last saw my family. So, where am I going to next?… stick around to find out.